confused

music- amos lee- keep it loose, keep it tight

so i have been thinking, which ussually means something bad. and well i really dont understand. lately ive been not feeling well, like not sick but, like depressed or something. idk i just cant be happy. if im doing something physical then i guess im happy, but i think its a temporary happiness. but i cant tell. i find the only times i acctually feel pretty happy is when im talking to her. i really think i like her. but i dont wanna ask her out because im still afraid of rejection. and if i dont think i can stand it anymore. but shes super nice and beautiful. the other day dustin said that if i dont ask her out soon then shell loose intrest. he also said girls want what they cant have. and told me not to talk to her alot. idk ., i actually like to right how i feel sometimes on this. it makes me feel like im not keeping it bundled up inside. well im done for now. im watching shrek and i think im gonna turn off my music too.