i give up

um i havent posted in a while
unlikely that anyone reads anyway.
i still write in here because it is a way to tell people
without actually having known who is reading this or
how they got to it. it is a sweet deal.
well i got a new camera and have been taking pictures and
well that is quite fun. ive also been skating alot more.
i notice though that everyday that passes i seem to get even more bored than the first.
what surprises me is that i have so many ideas floating in my head.
but i have no idea what to do with them.
the best idea would be to put them on paper. it would be a book of sorts.
idk though. i want to write a book. but wehn i start i get into about 1 page and get bored.
i could have a.d.d. but that would be highly unlikely. i think if i were to write a book it would be fictional. a book that would take you to places only captured in the minds eye.
but that is merely a dream. maybe one day it will happen.
i also have yet to ask "her" out on a date. ive procrastinated it for far to long.
i feel like an idiot. all the advice i get from people on what to do, what to say.
but really i cant believe any of them. because you cant tell who are the ones really trying to help you, compared to the ones looking for a good laugh. which could range from the people youve known all your life to the guy you just met yesterday.
i feel my chances with her diminishes a little bit everyday. i did notice that at the end of her comments to me there are no more hearts. which wouldnt have bothered me, but dustin had said that she puts one in each of the comments to me. which would mean shes trrying to say something. but idk dustin is quite stupid. but he did strike a point. and from there on out i have felt my chances diminishing. really i cant really tell. and i dont think ever will. so this is me giving up.as of january 16, 2006 12:17:22 i have given up. id like to thank all those who have come out to help and give advice. it was greatly appreciated.